Tuesday, June 29, 2004
Me , Myself And I ........
Juz came back recently from camp.
Boys' Brigade Annual camp.
24th to 27th June.
Camp was great.
4 days meant alot to me.
This might be mine last as i'm serving Nation soon.
4 days,
out of mine stuffy room,
hands off mine com & HP,
mind off someone i loved.
During this camp,
i diverted mine attention of HER
to the attention of my Boys.
4 days,
mine mind was quite at ease,
normal , calm , .....
maybe,
i thought,
i had her out of my mind for once.
LET BYGONES BE BYGONES
that's wat
SHE said.
I've control.
stop SMSing you,
stop thinking of you,
stop worrying abt you,
stop waiting for you in MSN,
stop jealous-ing of who you're out with,
stop "pestering" you,
stop "winning" you back,
stop being a fool to you,
stop being a sore loser.
I've learnt.
but,
that's things i'll never stop,
never stop having ya in mine heart,
never stop supporting you,
never stop wishing you love.
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p.s:
to those pple reading,
sorry for you all seeing how wimpy i m.
juz need a place to de-stress.
p.p.s:
i have no ideas why i write all this s**t.
hmm.........guess i'm out of things to write.
but not to worry,
i'll write something out interesting soon.
guess love life ain't mine cup of tea.
BeAv|s KaObEi at 11:17:00 PM
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Monday, June 21, 2004
Avril Lavigne - "My Happy Ending"
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
And you were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
And we were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
You've got your d**b friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the s**t that you do
And you were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
[Chorus]
It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
[Chorus x2]
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
BeAv|s KaObEi at 9:11:00 PM
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Friday, June 18, 2004
tHe DaYs Of Me.........
a wk passed,
juz how well i'm getting on ?
SUCK
i guess....
for the 1st time,
in mine life,
never did i felt this lonely , pathetic.
unlike the past,
no matter how lonely i m,
there's still frenz ard "jio-ing" for outing.
this time rounds,
there's onli one loser.
&
that's me ~!
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forget un-important things is common,
forget someone special like you is tough.
hate someone who hurt you is right,
but hate someone who u loved ??
from a role of the main ,
to a role of the support ,
doesn't it indicate the result ?
as ur loved one , i shown mine true feeling.
as ur frenz , i juz have to put up a false front.
it's tough ~!
Loved someone you love so deeply is tough.
hated someone you love so deeply is even tougher.
try to forget you.
the more i try ,
the more i realised ,
how important you meant to me.
I Love You.
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Dearest Blogger,
guess i'll be stop blogging for the time being.
in emotional break-down.
i see no points ,
writting how blues , break-down i am.
where the onli person i loved to confide to
is gone.
someone i loved , forgets me completely .
someone i loved , having great time outside now .
someone i loved , didn't even had me in memory .
someone i loved , didn't give concern on mine life .
someone i loved , didn't noe how much i loved her .
someone i loved , how are you ??
(__x__),
18/06/04.
BeAv|s KaObEi at 10:58:00 AM
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Thursday, June 10, 2004
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Michael Learns To Rock That's Why (You Go Away) lyrics
Baby want you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head
You're the one who set it up
Now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head
* CHORUS : I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feelings so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know
You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head
* REPEAT CHORUS
Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There is so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore
* REPEAT CHORUS
BeAv|s KaObEi at 2:32:00 PM
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BaCk To SqUaRe OnE ~!
often pple said :
dreams are sweet but don't lasts
sudden meeting will end with sudden breaking
the one u loved normally is the one that hurt you most
once bitten, twice shy
it's hard for one to stand up after a hard FALL
i believe how this pple felt now.
i'm speechless......
everything came to sudden for me to accept.
will there be a second chances ?
i doubt not.
based on what i seen,
it's even harder for another chances.....
now i'm juz too deeply...too deep...
CUT
i'm......................
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SPEECHLESS
LOST
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pls..
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lead me the way.....
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i'm drifting away.....
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i maybe struggle out in the ocean,
but it's u,my life vest that i needed you the most.
juz a pull from you..
back to mainland...
and i can 4get abt the tough times i had,
struggle to survive in the ocean.
&
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4get how the LIFE VEST saved mine "LIFE"
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enlighten me....
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clearing mine doubt....
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giving me courage to face mine life.....
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You're always on mine mind.
Forever.
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BeAv|s KaObEi at 10:16:00 AM
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Saturday, June 05, 2004
In ThE SmALL PlaCe I'm In ~!
JuNe - wHeRe ThE FuN BeGiNz~!
okiez,
i admit,
it ain't that fun anyway !!!
rotting at home, playing games, catching up with lame Tv programs,
lying in Bed, messing up mine room, surfing net,
reading news, staring out the windows, bathing late at nite,
listening to mp3, watching VCD, singing to crappy songs,
blah,blah,blah............
since the end of mine Final Year Project
which was,i think, early MAY,
& that's to mean i have rot over a mth plus.
damnz it,
was it that hard for me to find a job ??
i did what i can,
through frenz,
through papers,
through media,
no matter what,
i'll neber give up in searching for what's the best
BoRn WiNnEr
did i mention i used to write "born loser" at the back of mine P.E Shirts ???
yesh, i did & now u know.
for no obvious reasons,
guess i ain't that confident to boost ard that i'm a Winner afterall..
there's once when a frenz of mine told me :
A :I think everyone is born a winner ~!
Me :what makes u think of that ??
A :U see, U survive through millions of sperms & become what you r now!!
A :Ain't that a winners' status ??
*Me think abt it, & was quite agree to what he said..
but then back now,
i think abt it :
if then, everyone was a winner now ??
then who's the winner of all winners ??
doesn't that make me a loser of all winners ??
Damnz it !!!
alrite,
maybe i ain't really had that much confident, self-esteem personality ~!
SO DO U ??
BeAv|s KaObEi at 1:57:00 AM
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