Sunday, September 19, 2004
Lost memories ~~!
Everyone who goes to 2046 has the same intention
To recapture their lost memories
Because in 2046, nothing ever changes
Nobody can be sure that this is true
Because nobody who goes there ...
.. has ever come back
Except for me
Because I do need to change.
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so what's yours ??
ur lost memories ........
mine ??
i'm not sure ~!~~
what have i lost ??
my love ?
if there's a place where you can recall back everythings .
is it consider good or bad ??
this show "2046" which been filmed for 4yrs .
been looking forward to it .
so what's the ending ??
BeAv|s KaObEi at 4:52:00 PM
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Thursday, September 16, 2004
16th Sept ~~!
OH yeahz ,
Finally ,
i'm a yr older liaoz.....
21....
During the 20 yrs of me .
Fun , great frenz that i made .
Mistakes i took wrongly .
Steps i took blindly .
Gerz i missed & loved .
The toughest of life .
may 21st be a great year ahead .
adulthood ain't easy-going .
decision are tougher .
Slack time are shorter .
Fun are limited .
Cash are considered .
Relationship are out-kast .
okie ~!
actually i have no idea what i wrote above .
but juz wanna to state to frenz out there .
Thankz for all the msgs that i Recieve from you all .
(* althought i prefer more gifts lahz )
Bday is juz another yr to let pple noe ur existance .
haha....
glad i recieve bday wishes from frenz ....
or else i might think i'm realli a lonerz down here ~!
Thanks GUYZ ........
For beening there for mine 20yrs .
without ur supports ....
i doubt i can make it so far .
so know what you should all do now ??
give me more moral supports .....
ahhaaz
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toking abt the vocation i'm having now .
PTI ( Physical Training Instructors )
damnz....
now i'm damn scared .
dun ask me why .
everything make me fears .
the expectation .
the training .
the Toughest .
my physical .
my mental .
Basically Everything .
I'm SCARE ....~~!
althought it's juz short 3 wks .
15 days .
starting from 4th OCt .
before everything start .
it had already created a great phobia in me .
don't ask me why ~!
Heard the news of it ..
kept me in shivers ....
hmm ,
okie ......
i noe .
the more you fear ,
the more you can't make it .
so guyz ,
i realli need a lot of "turbo charge" from you guyz ....
i'll noe ya're there for me ....
i noe you noe i can ....
haha.....
so i muz
ENDURE .
like what mine PTI said .
".....IT's MIND over MAtter......."
& juz like that BADGE .....
" ....Endure & EXCEL ......"
i muz remember deeply inside me....
i noe .
God will always be there for me too .
P.S : so if i hardly update the blog , pls be understanding. .....
BeAv|s KaObEi at 8:37:00 PM
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Saturday, September 11, 2004
FiNaLe ~~
it's 5 mins to 4am in the morning ~!
juz had a nice , long ,warm bathe ..
& tooth-brushing sessionz .......
wonder y i'm not sleeping early today ??
i have no clues of why i'm staying up.....
maybe it's because i have been trained to sleep early
for the past 7 wks ,
&
thus now i wanna to see if i can "TAHAN" or not....
Finally ,
7 wks of recruit life ~!
IS FINALLY OVER ............
now here's a short summary of what happen in the wk :
Sunday
went back for drill competiton training ~~!
things ain't realli going right for the team ....
hand swings , sharp movement , commands ,
uniform , teams .....
all not going too well for the moments ,
let's juz pray Monday that the other 2 teams cropped up !!
Monday
Finally the day for Drill Competiton have come .
everyone in the drill team were so excited in excel today .
At ard 8am ,
all guyz were full geared with the "
SMARTEST" no. 4 ,
*that we all ironed & hardening late till yesterday nite
in their entire life ,
& the Shinings Boots ever seen ~~!
we gathered at the DRill Shed ,
where Bravo & Charlie were oso ard ....
1st Stage : Uniform Inspectation
the whole squence go like this ,
Charlie will go 1st ,
following Bravo ,
& lastly us , Alpha .
inside the
MPH (
Multi-Purpose Hall) ,
our grp needed to stand at attention for ard 10mins ,
while those judges will go ard & inspect everyones' uniform .
the Grading system is deduct from 100 pts .
so every mistakes will deduct from it ~!
guess we didn't do well in this stage ,
as i saw that those judge keep "stroking" on the papers....
damnzz...
2nd Stage : Drill Performance
as charlie & bravo went to preform 1st ,
we were anxiously waiting for our turn to perform in the parade SQ .
didn't manage to watch the other 2 teams perform .....
okie .
our turn !
the moment !
"Company SEDIYA"
all of us stomped our boot smartly on the ground .
&
marched on proudly into the parade SQ~!
"BEHERTI"
halt !!
here we are in the centre of the parade SQ .
facing with judges , 100 over plus pairs of eyes ,
YEs ,
everyone of us are veri confident we can do it .
so on , we went on with our stationary drill ~!
&
carry on till our marching off ........
&
to the MASTER commands ...
&
bleh bleh bleh.......
till the veri ENd ,
we marched off the parade SQ ....
everyone Jumped in JOy ,
cause after 4 wks of hardworks do realli paid off for that 30mins ....
....
okie ,
ended of everything.......
& now it've depend everything on the judges'pts of view ~~!
.......
.......
...........20 mins passed ,
out came the judges ,
everyone with an ANxious looking in their face ,
with a hope that they are the winner~~!
okie....
1st prize : BEST PLAToON SERGENT
......
.....
"....
Goes to LCP JoHANNES of ALPHA..."
.....
haha......all jump for joyz cause we all knew that
our LCP ain't up to standard
& yet he won best platoon sergent....
2nd prize : BEST Platoon Commander
..........
.........
"........
Goes to 2LT FaiZu Of Alpha ..."
....
OMG , out of 3 prize we got 2 of it !~
guess things are realli coming our way
GRand Prize : BEST DRILL COMPANY
........
........
"...........Goes to .......
....
B......
........R........
...A.......
V.......O......."
OMG ,
all of us in Alpha were shocked.....
we tot we gonna win ......
neber did we expected that ............
damnz........
but nvm ,
we knew we could win
& had put in our veri best efforts ..
anyway regardless win or lose ,
it's a once in a lifetime
as a SCDF recruit ,
you gonna marched in a drill competition~!~
=)
Tuesday
hmm ,
actually nothing abt this dayz ,
as most of the time were preparing for
tomolo
ROUTE MARCH &
Passing Out Ceremony....
& maintanance of bunkz...
Wednesday
Finally ,
the Day itself have comez .....
P.O.P !!
after ard 6wks of waiting...........
hhaaa.....
so in the early morning at ard 8am ,
the whole battlion wore their "
long 4 " ,
packed their Field Packs ,
Helmets & other stuff ,
together with themz~!~~
Off we go ,
ready for the route march ~!
out of the gates &
we walked to the nearby forrest through the neighbourhood ~!
to be truthful ,
actually the forrest was juz beside the expressway or so....
&
the route wasn't that tough
as all field pack wasn't as heavy compared to the ARMY .
so on ,
we walked N walked ,
Sang N Sang ,
Laughed N Laughed ,
without realising that we had have returned
back to our JAlan behar camp ....*
damnz
back in company line ,
putting down our field bagz ,
had a 5 mins break ,
& off we go for our LAST S.O.C as recruits !
facing with the last obstacles , The Rump ,
as you know ,
when you running toward it ,
you needed to Shout out Loud Ahead to alert the People In front ,
All Guyz went & shout
" P.O.P lorzzzz ~~!~!~! "
haha......funny siaz....~!
finishing S.O.C ,
actually it's gonna be Passing Out Ceremony one ,
but due to some problems ,
it's been held back till 2pmz
thus we slacked in our bunks ,
slept , rotted , took photoz ......
12 noon ......... ,
.........1 pm ........ ,
...................2pm ...... ,
finally the long-awaited ceremony is here ~~!
all 3 companies awaited outside the parade SQ ,
ready for the commands to march inside ......
Drum Roll given ,
& off we go ........
LeFt , RighT , LeFt , RiGhT ....
step by stepz & we entered the Parade SQ....
inside the PaRaDe SQ ,
we had our Guest of Honour :
LTC POON SIOW HAI
to give us a speech ~!
he congraduated us for tahaning inside so long as Recruits ,
learning so many things ,
& wished us best for the future ~~!
upon finishing the short speech ,
each company marched proudly in front of him .....
with a proud look saying that
"...WE DID IT ........"
Yes ......
& finally after 7 long , tiring wks ,
We , I , Finally did it .........
&
let's hope we all survive the next stages of Our Life ~~!~
*p.s : SOrry abt this boring entry....
Cause it's been a while since i realli regain back mine
own writing "skill".....
Sorry to Bore You allz.......~!~
Write you all something nice soon ........
BeAv|s KaObEi at 3:51:00 AM
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Sunday, September 05, 2004
6 DOwn , 1 to GO .....
I've been Drain dry too much inside liao...
so dunno what to write also !!
This wk was more of sport & drill practise .....
next wk is
Drill Competition liaoz....
*scary
competitors from the other 2 companies ,
Bravo & Charlie ....
are veri good teams ....
Guess we gonna have a tough time ,
maintaining the champion title liaoz........
sianz .....
well , anyway juz wish
US luckz !!!
next wk P.O.P lor...
happy like F*** ,
hmmm , Juz hope we , guyz inside , will have a
GOOD Vocation ~!~
update u all next wk ~!~
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okiez ,
i managed to struggle to be awake till 12 midnite ,
on 31th AUG .....
juz to sms her .
well ,
sound a bit foolish ,
but it's worth the try .
as it's been mths since i last contacted her .
finally it's a gd chance to know abt her how-about ....
okie ,
she replied !!!
was kinda of happy that she replied
* heehee
but we didn't smsed each other much ,
as i dun wanna to be a disturbance.....
*although i m .......
well ,
things certainly look fine for the moments ....
but ,
let's juz wait & see .......
wish me lucks again ~~!~
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HOOBASTANK - The Reason
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I found a reason for me
To change who I use to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish I could take it all away
And me the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I found a reason for me
To change who I use to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I found a reason for me
To change who I use to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
BeAv|s KaObEi at 1:47:00 PM
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