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Friday, March 25, 2005

Good Friday ~!

BeAv|s KaObEi at 1:29:00 AM
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Saturday, March 19, 2005

Ever - Constant

Why is it that the only constant thing in this world is "Changes" ??

When , all the while , it's been changing non-stop ,
and , yet , the most constant .

Initally ,
I refused to believe .

Thinking that ....
"Being Same" can be also constant .

But ,
somehow ,
after so many incidents recently.....

Btw the "Then" and "Now" differences .

I just simply can't refuse NOT to believe .

P.S :

1 Second of your life ---------------------------------- A Changes
Between life and death-------------------------------- 1 second apart
Things you thought will remain same forever------- It's changing

BeAv|s KaObEi at 2:20:00 AM
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Sunday, March 13, 2005

TiRed ~!

but ,
You've never fail to make to LAUGH .

p.s :
time check : 12.34 pm
oppz ....guess i was realli tired at 6am ....
that i didn't check what i typed ...

haha...thank to some kind soul lady ....~!

re-do part 2 :

You've never Fail to make ME LAUGH .~!

p.p.s : Thank for the correction ~! *_^
damnz ...now i'm last in place ~!
manz , guess it's time to brush up my "Ang-mo" liao .

BeAv|s KaObEi at 6:00:00 AM
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Saturday, March 12, 2005

You're Happy . I'm Happier ~!

It's a common sight .
Of how people going around accusing the Right Doing .

Cause it's never seem to them that ,
What other did , was correct .

You will be Extremely Shock ,
of how ignorant when one can get to be .

God send his Son , Jesus Christ ,
down to mainland , Earth .

Main objective : To make people believe in him . Forgive their sins .

Although we heard umpteen times of Jesus Christ's Miracle ,
Of how he Made the "Blind to see" , "Limb to walk" , "Mute to Talk" .

But somehow ,
there are STILL people , who didn't believe in what Jesus did .

and
going around ACCUSE his doing as "Evil" , "Black Magic" .

Seen "Passion of the Christ" ??

Of how people , people who don't believe in him , Treated him evil-ly .

If Suffer in agony , can exchange for your understanding & happiness .
Jesus Christ did that .
So why can't we ?

Did he in turn Blaming them for letting him suffer ??
NOPE .

He smiled .
Knowing that his people will understand , learn from what they see .

So if you think , Going around wrongfully accuse people who care/concern for you ,
will make you happy .

Why not ?

I'm happy for you too .

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Sometime ,
we wrote based on what we think .

But thinking back ,
have we ever in turn asked ourself the question ?

example :

Did i wrongfully accuse the right doing before ??

I dare to admit .
Yes i did .

Or
You will write of how shitty people are around you .
But ,
did you in turn ask yourself how shitty you are toward people .

Or
How people think of you .
But ,
did you Again In turn ask yourself how you think of people .

Or
How you laugh at people for their foolish-ness .
But ,
did you Again n Again in turn ask yourself how people laughed at the Foolish you .

Yet Again ,
People are in the ....

" I think i know , so i expect people to know too "

or

" I prove to them , so what have they prove me "

or

" For so much i did , and all i get is Shit " mode .

So much of every nonsense we people are .

P.s : Wahha ....HAHAAAAA
so SO so Funny that i almost fell off mine bed ~!

BeAv|s KaObEi at 2:55:00 PM
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Friday, March 11, 2005

Face it .You lost .

3.02am .
Be it the fact that I gonna wake up in ard 2hrs later .

Anyway ,
I had much needed sleep in the morning and afternoon .

"Active Night Goer" as you might call me .

Certainly ,
Be -ing up at this wee hr , Blogging ,
Implying to you guyz that I had a lot more to say than usual .

How should I start with my entry ??

Hmmmm ,
Heard of the bed-time story "The Big Bad Wolf " ?

Where little kid lied the first two times to the villages ,
that the Big Bad Wolf is coming to kill his sheep .
&
Eventually ,
When the Wolf really came and he houled for help ,
No one came to his rescue .

And gone was his sheep .

Remember it ??
When daddy always told us during bed-time ,
Telling us not to Lie .

Because eventually no one gonna believe you in the end .

Well ,
Everybody's not blaming the "kid" who fake for help ,

Maybe it's the kid's way of seeking attention ??
Or maybe the Kid didn't know what the hell he's doing ??

But honestly speaking ,
Everything you had said ,
Were so " Heaven n Hell " / different from what you did.

Remember all those promises you swear to yourself ....& in front of everyone ?

Were they all....... A Lie ? FAKE ??

Childish .
It might have seen to you .

But ,
It has never fail to impress people around you with how "maturity" you are in handling situations like this .

I muz ask you this .

Is there a need ?
A need to MASK up everything ?

A Mask that .....
How should I phrase it ??

......
..............
A Mask that made everyone so....believe in you .

Face it .
The basic principle in maintaining relationship .
Be it frenzship , courtship , families .

The one main factor is the word : TRUTH .

" Were there Truth in everything you told everyone in that mask of yours ?? "

Pls enlighten me ~!

What's so difficult in speaking the truth to everyone ?

Lies is like ,
Making up Story after story after story ….after n after .
And you never end making one up .

& Soon you don't even know whether you're in the Truth or in the Lies .

Seriously ,
I hate typing / saying this out .

But , I find you ,
Very pathetic...., Sympathetic .

Casue You had lie to everyone around you , including yourself .
& made everyone who believe in you , lose their trust .

Is it worth it ? worth all the masking up ?

Seriously ,
No one WILL understand you Fully through a "mask" .

Isn't it TIME you learn how to remove that ??

I'm here laugh truthfully ,
while you're there crying inside your mask .

BeAv|s KaObEi at 3:45:00 AM
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Thursday, March 10, 2005

Oh Well ~!

SomeTimes ,
How i wished ,
i was blind .

So I wouldn't be blind by this WORLD .

&

Sometimes ,
How i wished ,
i was deaf .

So i wouldn't hear a single things you all had said .

&

Sometimes ,
How i wished ,
i was numb .

For every single things you all did .

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Life isn't all about how many breathe you take ,
It's all about how Life takes your breathe away .

BeAv|s KaObEi at 7:22:00 PM
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Wednesday, March 09, 2005

WeLcOme ~!

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No
You don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No
You don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No
You don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No
You don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No
You don't know what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And one's there to save you
No
You don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

BeAv|s KaObEi at 10:56:00 PM
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Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Apologize From within ....

apologize for what i wrote lately .
kinda of PMS periods .

I'm a guy .
And don't expect me without moods .

The Recent Entries is nothing but non-sense .

Sorry to everyone .

BeAv|s KaObEi at 12:55:00 AM
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Monday, March 07, 2005

Heard of " Never Judge a Book by it's Cover " ? Here's One

ok .
make this clear .

Some of you people out there might be calling me asshole , jerkz , or even worse...
fucking bastard . or worse..?

Something i muz clarify for goodness's sake .

I'm not a Sympathic Little Bastard who don't even know when to let go of things .

I certainly know what to do & what not to do at the RIGHT TIME .
I certainly look kinda of shitty , but hey ....i always look shitty aint i ??
I certainly talk funny , so you expect me to talk serious every minutes ???

ok .
The most funniest things i ever heard from .... is some Words mention with "Childish" .

oh...
for christ's sake ,
am i ?

so be it ....

ARgghh ,
Shit ~!

Sound like a Loser ?? but not a SORE one for goodness's sake ~!

*pissed ~!

Ok ,
i Shut up .

Last Entry & no more Mr Nice-Fuck-up-Bastard ~!

P.s :

Persisent ?? Oh pls ....I'm NOt ..I'm NOt ....I'm NOt.....
& i'm more of PISSED now ~!

BeAv|s KaObEi at 10:54:00 PM
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No ..

In the Midst ,
Were there sinners created ?

Where everythings went totally wrong ,
And where everythings went totally different from what's expected ??

Just to say ,
No Sinners were created ~!

It's juz a Learning Phase .

BeAv|s KaObEi at 7:23:00 PM
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Lies , Lies and More Lies ~!

Sometimes ,
being frankness n too direct n too rush ,
made things goes totally Wrong .

Sometimes ,
Some white lies n a step back ,
may in turn seems better .

Now ,
It's a Distance too far than before .

An Accusation .

Nothing but a pin-point guilt .

Be it .
I'm used to such life anyway ..... nothing but accuse ~!

Nothing seems Correct to him , her , them , everyone & The world .

Bang ~!
DEath Sentence ~!

BeAv|s KaObEi at 12:13:00 AM
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Sunday, March 06, 2005

Running Away ??

Having Witnessed " Dr. Jekyll and Mrs. Hyde " incident last night ,
I can Certainly prove something .

Night makes people like me thinks alot ,
More of Unnecessary and Non-Sensible .

Is your life all abt running away ??

If yes ,
I'm Sad to say this .
Eventually you gonna tire out of exhaustion .

Are facing Problems or should i said " Obstacles " ,
make your life miserable ?

Fear Not , my friends ~!

All this " Obstacles " are bound to be in life ,
and it's already half a success , IF YOU DARE TO FACE IT .

Avoidance from one ,
Doesn't make anything better .

But does that mean Facing the Truth in Life will make things better ??
There's absolutely no definite answer in that .

But does that mean Facing The Truth in Life will make things worse ??
Again i have no definite answer in that .

We , human , are such a complex bastard .
We Made Things so DIFFCULT for ourself to solve it .

Ha , How Irony that is .

If There's bound to have a movie of mine own ,
Let's name it :" Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde : A Series Of Problems & Lies "

BeAv|s KaObEi at 2:30:00 AM
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Saturday, March 05, 2005

Did anyone Change you ?? NO , They didn't ~!

well , i don't care if anyone reading this ~!

I juz wan to say that ....No one ...not a single soul's been interfering with anyone's life ~!

But sorry me for mine blurtness ...
what do you consider interfering ??

If you said " poking your nose into someone's business ",
then i agree with you... That's interfere .

But ,
What do you call when one give a helping hand to someone who's down ???
is that interfere ???

Or ,
Seeing a drowning guy in the sea ....throw a lifebouy or jump down & rescue him ?
is that interfere ???

So what's your definition of Interfere ???

Ok ,
Am i making it sound like a Hero saving a lady in dilemma ...??

Hey , I'm not ~! ok ...

I'm more like a ....Citizen donating coins into those coin tinz ~!

Everyone's Helping ....Ain't They??

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Again i Agree ,

A simple blog where people put down what schedules they have for the dayz ....
what time they shit .... who they meet ......

make ya think u understand them .....

& that is totally wrong ....misconception ~!

A blog can be / may be some setup prank ,
where make reader think how they really are .......

But Again ,
Sorry for mine blurtness ,

The "Blogger" , so called , isolated herself from the "Outside World" and blogged abt how she felt , her day ....n so on....

And thus the blog became somehow like a "Linkway" btw Blogger & The Outside World .

There's no communication btw Blogger n Outside World .
& Thus linkway is the only important sources around .

So you have absolutely no reason to say that ......
it's the Outside World's fault to "misinterept" what's blogger is thinking ~!

But have the Blogger reallly try to communication with the outside world ???

It doesn't seem harder ...doesn't it ?

No reason for isolating ....
where the world out there is so beautiful ~!

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Again & Again i Agree ,
everyone out there have phobia ......

let talk abt mine ex-phobia ~!

i was trapped in lift once ...oh well , who didn't ?

but it kinda of freaked me out a little ...
trapping in a chilly , Black box ~!

For years , I hated taking lift .

Friend knowing mine situation , came helping me out ,
willing to overcome my fear of riding in a lift ....

Well , as said by someone ,
i , too , scolded the hell out of them 1st....when they came helping me .

But somehow ,
something spur me ~!~
telling me in my mind ....that i somehow muz overcome this phobia .

And yes i took the lift by myself alone.. haha...nothing great abt it ...

& yup ,
i proud to announe that i'm back to once the brave man to dare to ride lift again ....

Oh well ,
the main purpose it's not telling you that how great i m or how freak out i was having phobia .

all i saying is that
" IF YOU DON'T EVEN TRY TO OVERCOME IT , THEN YOU NEVER WILL "

it's not a sentence of insults ....but it's more of an encouragement ~!

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Sometime ,
We always say how happier we are when we're alone....

just how true do we felt when we said that ??

based on 21th last mth blog entry ,

Avoidance / Ignorance sometime seems much better way to certain people ,
but juz how long can they act ignorance that nothing else have really happen ??

Thinking that by simply acting blur or somehow bluffing themself....
that certain things might juz eventually turn out well ~!

The Conclusion of being Alone ,
Unfeeling , Cold-blooded one ....juz great...

But ,
Are you really happy with that ??
or Are you forcing yourself to be happy ??
or Are you forcing yourself to make youself think that you will be happy afterward ??

&
so what abt those shut-up alone ?
and hid in one corner crying ??

You're happy ??

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Well ,
most probably i'm being blacklisted by some people already .

But hack anyway

It's juz my way of speaking the truth & showing mine frankness .
If no one dare to say that in front of you ....

I WILL ......

That's the way i m ....

& read it ....

No One Have Ever Try TO Change You In Anyway ~!
The Only One Who Really Can Change You ,
Is You , Yourself .... ~!

Blame in on others ~! ......

So is it all people you have a boundary within ???
Is it that all people you think wanna to surpass your boundary wanna to change you ???

Oh well ,
Be it ~!
Dumbfounded ~!

Mr He-Think-He-Knows-All-Throughs-Two-Blogs-But-Yet-Kanna-Suan-Like-No-People-Business-and-Yet-Still-Wanna-to-Change-People .

Signing off .....

BeAv|s KaObEi at 4:48:00 AM
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