Wednesday, February 23, 2005
Phobia ??
The Past is the History of what Future learn abt ....
* Learn from mistakes . Move on with life ~!
BeAv|s KaObEi at 1:25:00 AM
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Sunday, February 20, 2005
You're never alone ~!
Do you think you're alone ,
thinking that no one understand you more than yourself ??
You're not the only one thinking that .
Everyone is .
The Fact is
" No one knows you better than youself "~!
Man ,
by fact , even have hard time understanding themself 100% .
let alone understand someone else ~!
Of hundred percentage of Understanding ,
Man , at most , can only give 50% to himself ,
& another 50% to somebody ~!
In life ,
everyone love to look for the 50% that they
LACK of .
but they never really know into the 50% that they
HAD .
& that's how demanding came abt ~!
of the 50% they lack of .
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Do you think you're alone ,
thinking that no one even bother to care while you're down ??
Not to worry .
Cause the fact that everyone cares .
Did it occur to you that ,
when you're happy , everyone ard you Re-appear in front of you ?
and when you're down , everyone juz disappear ??
The Fact is ,
they didn't re-appear nor disappear .......
they're always right
BESIDE ~!~
When ya're At your peak of joy ....
they "jump" right in front of your face ,
celebrating the joy that you're having .......
They share your happiness .
&
when you're extreme down ....
they "hid" behind you ....
Cause they know you need sometime to be
ALONE ,
and when you fall ,
they'll
CATCH you even before hit hard on the ground .
So , next time when you think ya're alone ,
turn back 180 degree .
Face your frenz .
They're always right behind ya when you're down .
BeAv|s KaObEi at 12:09:00 PM
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Tuesday, February 15, 2005
A WeLL-DeseRvE BrEaK ~!
WOoHoo...
8 long dayz of Break / Non-Working / Slacking / Nua-ing /Fun / Laughter / Sian-ness ,
since 8th of February .
It's the Chinese New Yr Periods which happen to falls btw Wed 9th & Thur 10th ,
and with Lazy Nua-ster / Slacker ass like me ,
who always came up with all sorts of reasons just to sleep in mine bunks or stay-put at home ,
Friday 11th , is a
Sure-Must-Take-Leave Day .....
"...I'm Juz too lazy to get mine ass out of bed ....juz to work for a Day ...."woo...
& further more with Sat 12th , Sun 13th , are Wkends ......
meaning more days of rest-es .
& with Mon 14th , Valentines'day ,
what more can i say ....
it's another
S-M-T-L Day .... haha...
& and ....Tue 15th ,
so what abt Tue 15th ?? any special reason to stay at home today ??
haha...basically no special reasons or on ,
juz need to recuperate back my working spirits and getting ready for work the next dayz ....
8 long days of breaks .....
since when do working life have such a long breaks ....??
Oh...how i miss-es Sch life ~!
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8th CNY EveWith every single one of Singapore Company / Enterprise / National Services Man
Working half-day ,
It's not surprising that All kinds of Public-transportation were damn packed .
Reached home ard 2plus .
and came to realised my room was still in a mess ~! OMG ~! Shit ~!
been telling myself & Queen C that i
"die die" will clean up mine room within the week ,
Haha...as usual ,
empty promises .......
but
HEY ,
don't think i never cleaned up in the end ....
I DID ...ok .
i sorted the boxes , cleaned away those un-cleaned dirt/dust ....
un-sight things being threw , computer desk cleared of papers ....
& finally a Bed without Junks on it ....
woohoo...finally i can roll abt in mine Queen-Size beddy liao ~!
well ,
actually , i onli left out with the vacuuming ....haha...
too lazy by then .
it mainly took me ard 2-4 hrs juz to clean up mine room ,
with me hibernating inside locked door with air-con on .
it's always the word that motivate me to work ...."
MOODs "
"...Don't Bullshit lahz , tell u to work/clean up , u tell me abt moods ...lazy juz say lahz ...."as some of you confirm plus guarantee will comment things like that ....
admits ,
i'm lazy ...that's Y needs mood wat
ahah ...
i'm kinda of "
moody" person ,
person who work depending on mood ....
& when do moods comes ? ......
Nights .... late night ..... mostly after midnight 1am to wee morning~!
at night ,
where everything were so asleep .....
That's when i can only heard my heart pounding ......
(* that's when moods come )
back to main topic ,
where i stop at cleaning up my room .
ok ,
and so i did manage to clean up mine room & throwing away junks .
Reunion Dinner ....
supposing-ly meaning , having meals together ,
but ,
this yr
2005....we kinda of getting lazy of such custom ,
so everyone ate at their own time own target .
well reunion dinner for us have like been down-grading ,
in
2002 , where mine granny , 5th uncle's family & ours met up in restuarant
for dinner ....
juz a brief descripition of mine ever-loving granny ....
a healthy , chubby , refined lady .
a lady with 4 generation ....
( Granny ) , ( Granny's children ) , ( Granny's Children's Children )
& ( Granny's Children's Children's Children ) .
oh ... juz in case you never seen
" I Do , I Do " ,
that's a part where it said where birth-child system :
" ....1st child = $3,000 .... 2nd Child = $5,000 ...& 3rd n 4th Child = $16,000 each ....."
Granny is a lady with 10 childrenz .
5 ladies & 5 gentlemen altogether ~!
imagine the money my granny gonna take ~!
oh well ,
having 5 or more childrean at the times ,
was too common ,
as living standard were low ,
& education wasn't for every single of them .....
& talking abt 5th uncle ...
oh well , didn't really like his wife n son lahz ...
Damn it for a bitch & son of bitch ....
thinking how high class they can be ...
somehow like everyone under their nose ~!
read mine lips you 2 ...
" SUCK IT ...YOU LOSERs ~! "*pardon me ....for mine languagesnever like them anyway....
getting out of topic again ....
oh...
in
2003 , it's down to 5th uncle / Granny house ...
where all 10 families gathers ...
woohoo...crowded
in
2004 ,
it's down to mine own Family , solo dinner ....
steamboat ..
well , i prefer small grp gathering ....where everyone having same topics to chat on ...
but damnz ...
in the end... the steamboat out of Gas liao ...
& with Mummy busy with Cleaning up house , 4getting abt such minor things ...
didn't have spare can ...
oh well ,
in the end ...boil hot waters & cook those foods .....
what a reunion dinner .....
well , every years' been downgrading ...
so what's next for
2006 ??
packed-food ?? mum ??
after reunion dinner ,
as usual ,
back to my room ...where there's bed , com , & TV ...
Hibernate-Time ~!
this yr without programs from the guyz ,
it's kinda of boring .....
& going down to Chinatown squeeze with those kiasu auntie & ah pek ...
Oh well , i might as well go clubbing n squeeze with chicks lahz .....
spare me manz ~!
& i rot in the end ....
9th CNY - Lunar Day 1finally ,
New yr ....
ever since last 2 yrs ,
my family have been without transport of our own ,
i hardly step out with them .
imagine a family of .....er let me count...
my mum , dad , bro , his wife , nephew of 8mth & me
6 of us ....
travel in cab or watever is a NO No ...as it's over crowded .
& imagine bus / Mrt ,
squeezing here n there .....
so i sacrifice .
i don't go hell ....who will ...
so as to let them take Cab without squeezing ....
again ...nua-ing at home ~!
but tonight gonna be Different totally ....
i'm going Clubbing...hoo... zouk ...mambo....
with
sec sch frenz &
My Highness C bunchz ~!~
woOHoo....
Night falls ,
getting ready for clubbing ...
but beforehand ...promise mummy to at least
go down to 5th Uncle / Granny house to makan dinner ...
journey in train from Sengkang to Kovan was less than 10mins ~!
there it was ....
those relatives again ....
i don't know why .
every Chinese new yr .....
althought it's once a yr event , where i can only seen them ....
i basically have No...
and i meant a big
" NO " communication conversation with any single one of them ,
regardless of elders or cousins or whatever shit ...
is it because i look too serious / fierce / "dao" or whatever ....??
I do try to communicate with some of them ...
but , it didn't turn out well ....
well , Chinese New Yr is all abt gathering , Joy & laughter within Families ....
but i can't feel it from them . sad .
Seriouslly ,
I can Fore-go AngPow (red packets) in exchanges for communication with them .
why not ?
guess i really just can't click with them ..
no idea why ...
It only happen to my dad's side of family ....with 9 sibling ....
but it's 180 degree different over at mum's side with 2 sisters of her .
well , i made my apperance over at granny house with like .... 30mins ...
with like ....over 30 plus people around ...
& only a few of 5 or so ...
knowing mine presence ....
Hack ,
n so i sneaked off ....
after i bid good-bye to my beloved granny ~!
met up with a female frenz of mine ...over at kovan MRT ...
& took cab over to zouk ....
supposingly to meet at 8 ...as requested by the organiserz...Raymond & gang...
cause you see ....
remember one of the previous entries where i stated on Hari Raya last Dec ??
the crowd was queued all the way till all the way till the bridge ....bleh bleh n so on ,
so to avoid such unpleasant scene ,
we meet up early ~!~
well ,
Way much EARLY liao... haha
reached ard 8.05pm...
and damnz , not a single soul of my frenz had reached lor...
as expected ~!
so decided to withdrawn some cash ....juz in case lack of $$ ...
& went over to the HOTEL right beside ZOUK to rot over at the Lobby 1st ....
half an hours gonez ....& not a single soul have reached yet...
felt like kanna conned n so on ...
& somemore ,
queues over at Zouk ...er.... was countable ....
finally , 8.45 , came
Raymond & yuchu ....
ahhh , finally some life in the clubbing scene ~!
and on came ,
Terence ...Kok Keong ....My Highness C & gang and so on ...
therE , the Crowded , wasn't much as we expected ,
maybe because it's still early i guess , 9 plus ...
thus decided to pay up the entrance fee $25 , & getting the
"Chop" chilli "chop" .
well , Damnz ,
it's way TOO early lor...even we paid up ,
we ain't allowed to enter as things wasn't set up yet ....
& thus waited outside like for another 15mins or so on .....
inside zouk ,
1st , we Xchanged a jug of TiGer Beer ....as to kick start lahz ,
but something was aMiss ,
1 tix = 1 mug of Tiger Beer ....
so we assume 1 Jag = 4 tix lahz , as normal a Jag can fill 4 mugs ,
den it turn out , 1 Jag = 5 Tix ...
oh well , we were kanna Conned again by 1 tix ...
how idiotic we r ....but anyway ...hack ...
it's all abt fun & drinks ...& all we are waiting for is ... :
" MidniTe MadNess ...( 1 for 1 ) 11pm to 12mn "as approached by
KK ....
" hey dude , come lah , let drink 'graveyard' ....On bo ?"
well , as for me , who never drank 'graveyard' before ,
nor even been drunk before , heehee
Agree to the Challenges ~!
n so came the graveyard ....or so ...
IT's Stout ...plus some-other-dunno-what-shit-drinks into it .
Well , of course ,
in order to feel the
"kick" ,
i drank 1 whole shot .... n errr , to say ...that wasn't a kick ,
it stinkz my mouth ....damnz ...
ahah... oh well , i guess the Drinks wasn't Genuine or strong ,
thus didn't Drunk ~!
Oh Sad ... n to add to that Challenges ,
i drank up a " Long Island Tea " , and guess what ,
I wasn't
DRUNK again ....damn it ...haha......abit XL hor ?
sat over at one corner near the baggy counter ...
then suddenly came a "half-drunk" siao charbor ,
collapsed next to me &
KK ~!
i was like
"...OMG.. who the hack is that... "
& guess what ?
turn out to be
" My Highness C " . geesh .
boy , did i thought she drank Graveyard like i did .
& guess what ???
she onli have 1 tequila shot ...& maybe some other light drinks before that .
ahha ...
everyone was like concerning abt her n so on ...
scared she might puked .... as you know lah ,
when someone puke on you or on the ground... it's stink n sianz one lor ....ahha
den somemore everyone's so concerned whether she will get back sober ,
& again you know lah ,
everyone's having fun ... then if have to send one drunk lady back ... abit sianz what ...
hahaa.... evil everyone ... only think about themself ~!
well , being the
"honour-able" ka kia ,
i , somehow , at least , showed some concern to My Highness ,
by , errrr , lending shoulders lor ... haha ...
& of course just in case any prevert come n molest or whatever .... as said by my Dear-est
KK ,
who turn out to be the most overly-concerned gentlemen in the grp ...
( *guess he's drunk by then .... 'graveyard' remember ? )
ahha.. bet KK didn't realised we already are two big preverts liao ??
of course ,
due to much caring by everyone ,
she's sober again ..
Thus , It's PARTY TIME again ~! HoOhOoHoO ~!dance dance dance ,
sing sing sing ,
flirt flirt flirt ....ahhaa
oh well , In the midst , were some unpleasant events ,
which i think i should not write in here ....
but anyway ,
all single one of us , enjoyed the night ~!
hey it's CNY ... of course everyone's happy rite ~!
p.s :
To guyz , well it's good to be a gentleman ,
concern ... caring...
but of course , to certain extent for christ's sake ~!
Overly-done seem a Pest to everyone .
10th CNY - Lunar Day 2well , reached home ard 5am ,
after sending Her Highness C back home ,
manz , it's a very ulu , deserted area lor .
even if you scream for help , i doubt anyone will be out to save ya ~!
ahha.. com'on smart singaporean ~!
dun stay in such ulu area lahz ,
although with such a so-called low crime country ,
but that doesn't mean NO crime what ~!
sound like the crime prevention campaign :
Low Crime doesn't Mean NO Crime ~!
*haha crapzoh well ,
having getting home so
"early" in the morning ,
I'll definitely be slogging on my bed till late noon ~!
yesh , i slept till 12 in the noon ....
maybe was awoke by some prank calls or so ,
didn't have much activities carried on during the dayz ....
played games & nua-ed ,
and meeting up over at Marina Square at night for movie ~!
Intially , thought the guys ( Boys' Brigade Frenz ) & their girl-frenz ,
were watching
" Constantine " .
but Nope ,
it turned out that they were so supportive of local Film
" I Do , I Do " .
what more can i said abt Jack Neo's Film ??
they never fails to make locals laugh out loud ~!
with Hui-ge acting out tonz of different roles ,
starting from P.M Lee Hsiang Hui to Low Rank Cop ... haha
my favourite part of the whole film was the one talking abt
" ..Present Tense ...Past Tense....n Future Tense ..."example :
Present Tense >> Tio Meh
Past Tense >> Tio Chou
Future Tense >> Tio *** ... 3 letters words ...starting with K
well , of course it's not funny with me , such a loser explaining .
but it's real funny over at the movie ~!
the show last ard an hrs half plus n so on ...
didn't realli keep track ~!~
it's a Must-waTch Show ...but of course ...at a cheaper rate ~!~
11th CNY - Lunar Day 3oh well ,
as days passed ,
i came to Re-A-lise ....that it's getting more boring n boring ....
While We were much younger ,
been looking forward for CNY ~!
That's what we get to meet up relatives , fun cousins ,
& of course , AngPow .
That's of course the main Reason why kids love CNY .
but as we grew much older ,
and realised that , MONEY isn't what we're aiming for ,
Then there ain't any good reasons for us to look toward CNY .
That's when we began to love Valentines' day n so on .
went over to Woodlands , SOS's house ....
dress in red ~! Huat ah ~!
as usual , regardless watever event ,
to their house is confirm plus guarantee , STEAMBOAT .
ahaa.. or should i say they don't have anyone to cook in the house ?? oopz
oh well , nothing to say abt steamboat right ??
what's good can a steamboat be ...other than those abalones ? ahhaz
watched JAY Zhou concert DVD ....while makan-ing ...
well , of course it's better to watch " Live " like i did last year ~!
Gamble "
Er Shi Yi Dian" after mealz ,
and WoohOoo... was mine luck that day ....
like Steamboat like that sia ....Keep on Boiling ...
making Me , the Biggest Winners ~!~
well , was the Banker that day ....
and geesh , Can you imagine ...
while ya're the only one wearing
Red & keep on winning ......
in the end ...
3 out of 5 players went to change into
RED shirt also lor ....
It's their house ....of course they can change whatever color shirt they have ~!~
& i was like
"....What The .... ? ??"haha...but anyway , it's juz a simple game of little amounts of $$
and anyway , i still managed to win some money back for CAB ~!~
& over the other part of Singapore ,
where the guyz , Raymond n gangs , went Chinablack ~!
manz ,
and they were approached by chicks , OMG ~!
AHHhhz ,
shit ,
and i wasn't there ~!!~!~
in mine whole life , never been approached by gerz lor ...
*sob
12th CNY - Lunar Day 4 not much happening ~!
juz attended a birthday party over at Pasir Ris NTUC resort .
well ,
actually kinda of a small gathering with mine Poly Sch-Mate .
It's been quite sometime since we last met up .
Everyone seems so distant now~!
13th CNY - Lunar Day 5Due to everyone's exhaustion ,
our gathering over Benjamin's house (Boy Brigades' Frenz) ,
wasn't much of a exciting nor enthusiastic within us .
Ha , anyway juz a small gathering or so .....
Anyway much looking forward Tomorrow ~!
Valentines'day ~!
14th CNY - Lunar Day 6V ...V ...Vvvvvv
Va-LeN-TiNe Day ~!
well , initially planning to meet up " Her Highness C " over at town ,
but then ,
due to un-fore-seen circumstance & Demanding Request ,
change of plan to
"Uncle Ringo - UK FunFair " .
and thus turned out to be a double dates .
4 of us , Her Highness C , F pigsy , Raymond & Me ~!well , meeting up at 6pm - 7pm ,
and while it's still early , so ....
i went over to ICA building to collect mine New Passport .
Reached Woodlands ard 6 plus ....
and well , ard 7 ,
The Ladies , ...late .... haha~
had Burger Kings meal for dinners , & before that while waiting ,
already had a Regular Cup of Barley .
Shit , having slight feeling ,
that i might puke during those Rides ...Oh.. better not ~!
Woo ,
short intro abt the rides inside :
1) there's this super-High Rides which is so obvious upon entrance .
....which is emit 4 personz at each end~
oh well , it's as high as 10 - 15 storey high ....cost : $15
2) there's this ballistic thingy ....which will bounce you up into the sky ...
well , it's kinda of wasted $$ ,
but comparing the price to Clarke Quay , it's way much cheaper ~!~
3) Over The Top .
It's basically something that COnfirm make ya Giddy ....
4) And many other more lahz. ...
just to lazy to intro every single shit out of it ...
And anyway entry fee was $2 ...
so juz go in and have a look ~!~
Right From the 1st Round , Over the Top , itself ,
had made me & F pigsy puked lorz
its like , i had too much junks inside stomach ....
& whilst she had nothing inside ...
"...Why the Hell we puke...? oh Manz , Spoilt-spot..."but hey hey...
that didn't stop Us from taking anymore Rides ....
&
we Carried on ....geesh ...
& so we tried the rest of the Rides ...
well ...and of course ....
still feeling nauseous....although with the help of some "plum" .
oh well , as recorded by " My highness C " ,
she said
F Pigsy was 4th in position ...cause she puked 6 times ,
and juz in case for you blogger ,
SHE WAS THE ORGANIZER LOR ~!~I was 3rd .
well , blame it on the BURGER king ok ??
it make me full ~!
My Highness C was 2nd .
although didn't puke or anything like that ....
but she , too , feeling kinda of headache after all those rides ~!
&....
Winner ....of the Uncle Ringo FeaR - FacTor is .....
Raymond Yeo ~!oh ...I could have been ranked 1st ...
if not for the lousy Burger King Meal ~!~
* i know , i'm a sore loser ....but who CAREZzzz =pphoto courtesy of the ladies'bloggies :
ok .
i admit this one last time .
I ain't photogenic ... i'm photo-shit-nic ...
15th CNY - Lunar Day 7OMG , Working tomolo ~!
Save me ~!
oh well , y do holidays have to end so fast ??
BeAv|s KaObEi at 10:54:00 AM
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Monday, February 07, 2005
A CaVe CAN never Withhold 2 Tigress ~!
hands on ,
and ready to blog .
it's been quite sometime since i last have the mood /
strength to blog .
anyway it's not a daily life blog ~!
as matter of fact ,
i blog mainly cause i'm feeling down/stress/out-of-this-world/loss/
seeing situations that i needed to voice out ....
let's juz go back to the main topic ~!
so what's with these cave n tigress ??
basically cave ,
which i pointed out .... is home .
2 tigress ??
well ,
it's the mother-in-law & son's wife
earlier on yesterday ,
opps ,
i meant saturday ~!
oh well ......forgot it's monday morning 2.43 am now
in regardless that i have to wake up at 0530 for work later ...
Hell break loose ,
World War 4 started ...
arguement of the century....
mother-in-law VS son's wife ...
my my ...
how exciting / Fiery fight that was to be ...
in-law over at the far end ,
houling like hell ,
hunger for victory ....
whilst son's wife at the other far end ,
defending herself ,
trying to snatch away the title away from the mother-in-law .
a punch in the left ,
a kick from the right ,
a back-breaker ....
& a pin ....
1 ....
.....2.....
...........3....
ting ting ting....
mother-in-law won again .....
retaining the arugement title back again...
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okie ,
i admit .....
i was boliao ....and
i exaggerated abt the fact on my mum & bro's wife arguement .
heehee...
at that point of time ,
i was hibernating in mine room when arugement started .
it's common nowadays .
especially since my nephew was born .
before that ,
it was arguement abt household chores ...
this n that.....bleh bleh bleh....
next ,
it was expense .....
bleh bleh bleh....
up next is the kid ,
bleh bleh bleh ....
so what's next , ladies ??
my mum
age : 51 this yr
occupation : full time house wife with a 2 children 1 grandchild and a guardian to a child
Pros : willing to scarifice for the sake of family .
Cons : expect much from son's wife ...due to much experiences in being a house-wife
bro's wife
age : should be 20 if i not wrong ...
occupation : student , mother of 1 , upcoming nurse .
Pros : young , tendy ,woman of the 20 century .
Cons : simply just wouldn't compromise to mother-in-law
to me ,
i guess ,
the victim of them all ,
goes to my bro ....
imagine being sandwich...
geesh ...
that's gonna hurt ~!
problems of in-law & daughters have been passed down from generations to generation .
& yet it have not been resolved .
actually ,
problems between them can be resolve very easily .
keyword of the day : GIVE IN . Compromise one another .
it's never easy to adapt with someone new .
& it's never easy to change yourself for the sake of others .
it take times .
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seriouslly speaking....
i have no idea what i'm writing now ...
maybe get rid of it when i wake up later on ~!
anyway ...
valentine's day is coming ~!
what a day .
when i gonna struck at home , watching tv ~!
oh well ,
might as well take mine time n plant those blue roses as promises ~!
haha.....
crap...
i think i'm losing touch in writing...
BeAv|s KaObEi at 2:38:00 AM
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