Thursday, September 29, 2005
Here For you ~!
I can't say you're both the same .
But both said the same and did the same .
Saying that i have it all but just almost .
Feeling it all but not the most .
You said you seen it through and saw it all ,
seeing the future and know it all .
But all i see was you saw your own .
Happy walking path that just your own .
You and I can make it through .
But you gave it up just halfway through .
Knowing it's not the guy who hurt you deep ,
Just can't help it but HATE him deeply .
Saying outcome are all the same,
And what makes you think they're all the same ?
Saying it's best for both of us .
Basically it's just bluffing all of us .
Not saying i don't believe ,
Just that i find it HARD to believe .
Had it once and had it twice .
Can't believe i lost them twice .
Familiar heart-ache, dry tears, There they came ,
Welcome back, enemies of mine ~! I treat with dispair .
Confident and Independent you said i should be .
Down and lonely was all i could be .
Hoping future joyful me .
Seeing future tearful me .
What i saw was differently .
walking together happily .
hand in hand down the road .
long and longer time on road .
What's up with right and wrong ?
Don't we learn them all along ?
And what does perfect means to you ?
Like i see perfect through imperfect all in you ?
And when does Incorrect seems correct ?
When you have thinking that you're always correct .
And what's with talking, talk non-stop ?
I rather be dumb and talk with soul .
Bravely, you said you handle them all .
Lonely, i said you gave them up .
Hands i opened wide like doors ,
yet you shut me up like dogs .
I'm a diary wrote by god ,
waiting for angels like you to read along .
Seems the story it had bore you .
Lovely day one was what all you read .
Now I am on the road alone ,
How i wish we were alone .
No more a future here with you .
Wanna an embrace here with you .
Tomorrow can never be brand new .
When it's all that without you .
My heart all i give to you .
giving you all but not in you .
In of love but out of your flavour .
sad and hurt and all kinds of flavours .
Selfish you may be calling me that .
No-where to turn to i write all that .
Maybe Wrongs in what i wrote ,
Words from heart are what i wrote .
Forgive me like how Jesus forgive sinners ,
For i done no sins but for love that i loved deeply .
No emotionals blackmails like you said ,
I didn't do that, God I Swear ~!
Dreaming, Waiting are all i can act ,
Moving on, you seems so far and that's hard for me to catch .
Here in last i call you " My baby " ,
Forever and ever you'll be my baby .
Love you .
BeAv|s KaObEi at 2:55:00 AM
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Wednesday, September 28, 2005
I am James
I ain't no J*** Ass like J .
I ain't no Asshole like A .
I ain't no Jabroni like JE .
I'm a "J" person of my own .
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I admit,
I'm sucky most of the time .
I admit,
I ain't no perfectionist .
I admit,
I lied to cover up my mistakes .
I admit,
I ain't decisive enough .
I admit,
I'm not flexible at times .
Give me Time ~! A little more time ~! A little more smiles ~!
BeAv|s KaObEi at 11:07:00 PM
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Monday, September 26, 2005
May...Be.. , I
Can't forget how it feels getting heart-ache .
Dreadful feeling .
Can't remember how many times i was so occpuied .
Quiet dark corner .
Can't spell happiness in my face .
Il-literate .
Can't see when one's telling the truth .
Deep down inside .
Can't differ the good and bad well .
Angels and Demons .
Can't sense the presense of you .
Missing .
Can't speak what i really meant .
Short-Tongue .
Can't let you feel secure like how you expect .
Helpless .
Can't feel confident in myself .
Fear .
Can't forseen the future . Double world .
Forbidden .
Can't hold on till the end . Very last .
Give up .
Can't give everything . Everything .
Nothing .
Can't be the best among the rest .
Low and Down .
Can't make simple decision .
In-decisive .
Can't sing you a lallaby .
Untalented .
Can't be sweet in the most sweetest way .
Boring .
Can't let you believe much as it should be .
Doubtful .
Can't give you what you want in return .
Selfish .
Can't be tailor-made from the hand of GOD .
Sense of Unique-ness .
But .
May... Be...
" I can."
BeAv|s KaObEi at 8:52:00 PM
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Monday, September 19, 2005
Wow ~~!
Kisses make Man Evil ,
Kisses make Evil Man .
Make Evil kiss Man ,
Make Man Kiss Evil .
Man make Evil kiss ,
Man make kiss evil .
Evil Man make kisses ,
Evil Kisses man made .
P.S. : May... Be... I love Kisses ~!
BeAv|s KaObEi at 7:27:00 PM
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Friday, September 16, 2005
16 Sept ~!~
Nothing special .
A day to let me know I'm older, Poorer and Still without a Car .
BeAv|s KaObEi at 10:54:00 AM
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Monday, September 12, 2005
It took .....
1 min to walk to loo .
5 mins to walk to bus-stop .
10 mins to walk to interchange .
15 mins to comb my hair .
30 mins to wake up by 530am n leave house by 6am .
1 hours to reach boon lay from sengkang .
4 hours to have my lunch .
9 hours to finish my work .
12 hours to realise i slept through-out the day .
15 hours to realise i wasted half of my day juz doing nothing .
24 hours to realise i need to start work, AGAIN .
1 day = 24hrs = to realise i'm a time wasting machine .
2 days not seeing you to realise i miss you even alot .
5 days later to realise i'm a yr old, to remind me that i'm still poor n with no car but with a lovely gf .
1 week later to realise that life goes on... Working suck .
4 weeks to realise i'm broke .
5 weeks to realise i'm rich, again.
10 weeks to realise nothing much happen, still the same me .
52 weeks to realise that a year have pass so fast. Too Fast .
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I dunno how long it took me to realise you really read this entry .
DUMBO~~!
Run out of shit to blog .
Should eat more dictionary to shit out some stuff .
BeAv|s KaObEi at 4:21:00 AM
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